In the past couple weeks, I have been dying to be at the gym. Sadly, right now I am in the worst season of my life in terms of cholinergic urticaria. There have been times in the past I thought it could never get any worse, but it has. The severity and sudden nature of the discomfort from the hives is tough to even explain. It covers me from head to ankle now and my hypersensitivity to sweat is at a ridiculous level. It's been disabling to the point that I have to start telling people about it, apologizing for my strange behavior, and excusing myself from situations. I'm starting to employ avoidance techniques because it is horrific enough to warrant them. I'll be going to the doctor soon to get an official diagnosis, but all that will probably help me with is being able to explain some things to some people. There is no cure and really no solid treatment for the malady, so all I can do is practice avoidance and hope that tomorrow brings a new season. There have been times in my life where I didn't struggle with this (see: last year), and all I can do is pray that I return to that state. Until I do, I'm going to struggle. Every day is a battle and, quite honestly, the #1 priority is avoiding attacks. The ripple effect of this is obvious. I just have to keep fighting.
Man, I don't know if you recall, but I had this itch problem at times. It has gone away now for years and I probably never had it as bad as you, but it was enough that I feel like I know exactly what you're going through, literally planning out your day, having to worry about being in enclosed/warm rooms, meetings, etc. I sure hope it gets better soon. Life keeps throwing one thing after another at you. Don't give up.
ReplyDeleteOn another note, I had a strong urge to share this but didn't want to stir the pot too much by posting to facebook so I'll put it here!
http://jessecurtis.blogspot.com/2013/02/more-on-why-conservatism-cant-solve.html
Unbelievable. I didn't remember at all that you had it. I remember Joel talking about getting it on his head from time to time while out working, and I thought maybe Jon had it a little bit. This is so interesting. A very unique DNA issue it seems.
ReplyDeleteGoing to your post now.