Wednesday, November 28, 2012

-0.4

It was not the horrible Thanksgiving week I expected. I weighed in this morning at 216.8, which is 0.4 pounds lighter than last week's weigh-in prior to three Thanksgiving dinners and a lot of unusual eating.

I am extremely happy with this because I expected to be saying, "All I did was eat like a normal person and I gained three pounds." This reinforces my belief that I have learned how to maintain my weight while "eating like a normal person"; it worked during the 35-day stint earlier this year and also worked during Thanksgiving week. If I can do the same + make some progress over the Christmas season, I will be in great shape heading into 2013.

Then again, maybe I didn't eat like a normal person. At my first two Thanksgiving dinners I saw thin people getting a 2nd plate full of the same food they just ate; meanwhile, I felt stuffed. That can only bode well. 

Daily calorie totals for the next week will be posted here.

And, I suppose I should take this opportunity to share other news. On Monday this week I was blessed with a big promotion at work; it had been expected in the 3-6 months range but it blindsided me and a lot of other people when it happened so quickly. I have now graduated from the ranks of PSR, Mentor, Tier II Specialist, Assistant Trainer, and Team Lead; I now get to become Quality Assurance Specialist (it's a new position; I'm not replacing anyone). It's my biggest jump yet; still, it is just another step in the right direction (albeit one that I will probably spend years on). I'm excited about the challenge and all of the things I will be doing, and I'm looking forward to working with the people who make all of the decisions. The only other thing I'm working on is building up my accrued years of employment so I can get maximum PTO (25 days/year + holidays instead of 15 days/year + holidays). :)

One thing I am also very excited about is that Kylie Grabenstein will be replacing me as Team Lead. She is very well-deserving and one could argue with great effectiveness that she should have been one step ahead of me in all promotions. Any time I've been promoted my first thought has been, "But what about Kylie?" Hence, any time I get a chance to plug her merits, I do so. I am having a great time training her this week and I know she will be an amazing Team Lead, likely outperforming me. Congratulations are also in order for Rob Hovey, one of my team members who, as part of the domino effect created by the new position, will now move to Tier II.

I should also let you guys know that I am desperate to get to the doctor and have a lot of testing done. I have been experiencing very troubling, near-excruciating pain in my left arm/underarm/side of chest area, stretching into the neck and back. It has been ongoing for 3 days; I have taken a steady diet of prayer and aspirin in an attempt to subdue it but so far it has not subsided. We are in a buffer period between being on my insurance and Amy's insurance right now, and we need to wait to get verification of Amy's insurance (and ensure they don't try to "pre-existing condition" me) before I make my appointments. Quite frankly, I'm just trying to survive until then. That's what it feels like. Prayers of the semi-urgent variety would be very much appreciated.

One more thing to mention -- I feel like I've been quiet lately -- is where I stand with grad school. I started out with two classes this semester, but quickly realized that I wasn't going to be able to handle it given everything else that was going on in life. One day I was driving down the road, so stressed about school that I realized I was failing to see the beauty all around me. At that point I realized it wasn't worth it, so we decided to go ahead and cancel the loan, incur a rather unfortunate cost, and drop a class. We made the decision that any classes I take in the future will be paid for out-of-pocket because, although we only had the loan for a week or so, it made us extremely uncomfortable. The one class I stayed in is going well, and I should have an A barring a collapse in these final 2-3 weeks. I feel good about studying for and passing my GRE this year, being accepted into the MBA program, and doing well in that first class. Next year, I will be ready to start the "MBA core", which is 12 classes. We're actually not signing up for a class next semester, because we're paying out-of-pocket and we know that we will be buying a car in the very near future. In order for me to stay active in the program and avoid having to re-apply in the future, I have to sign up for a class once every 18 months. Of course I don't want to wait that long between classes, but we'll do what we have to do in terms of finances. If I do decide to stay on the MBA path, as long as I have it by the time I'm 35 I won't be disappointed.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

No change heading into Thanksgiving week.

It was a frustrating 0.0 change at today's weigh-in, leaving me at a stagnant 217.2 heading into Thanksgiving week. And the mind-numbing, embarrassing plateau continues.

I needed to make progress this past week to guard against the next, and evidently I failed to do it. I don't necessarily have a defeatist mentality about the upcoming week, but I want to look at it realistically. I'm not going to be counting calories on Thursday, Friday, and Saturday; I will eat reasonably just as I did during the 35-day period earlier. More than likely, though, given the plateau that I am currently struggling to break, I will post a higher number next week and have even more ground to make up. The goal remains, however, to avoid overall weight gain during the holidays and hopefully reach 20 total pounds of loss before the new year. That goal gets more and more lofty with each passing disheartening weigh-in, but it's still attainable.

Daily calorie totals for the next week - that is, today, Monday, and Tuesday - will be posted here. On the other days I will likely be eating in the 2,000-2,500 calorie range, which should not cause weight gain in a normal individual. We'll see what happens.

Then again, a normal 24-year-old man also would have lost weight averaging about 1,800 calories consumed over the course of a week. And the mind-numbing plateau continues.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

lol

It was a darn good week, yet I weighed in this morning at 217.2 pounds, which is a pound of gain. It doesn't make sense and blah blah blah, all the stuff I've said before. It appears I am in a zigzag pattern; hopefully my zag will be bigger than my zig and I will be under 216.2 next week so I can finally claim that ever-elusive "best I've been to date" number. And, I would like to punch the holidays in the mouth and finish the year strong at an even 20 pounds lost. After all, last holiday season I gained 30 pounds, so I think meeting this goal would constitute significant improvement.

Daily calorie totals for the coming week will be posted here, and I feel primed for a good one. At this point I'm more concerned with how I feel I performed than what the scale says. That's why I'm not depressed about last week because I know I did my job. I can only control what I can control.

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Concession/victory speeches

I wanted to keep these; I don't know any way to save them so I thought I'd embed them here.



Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Well, that's a good week!

I weighed in this morning at 216.2 pounds, a loss of 3.0 pounds from last week, bringing my total weight loss to 15.8 pounds (I'm scrapping my "start over from 217" idea). This is extremely exciting and brings me right back to my low to-date. Now, the challenge is making sure I keep improving next week. I need to be able to say that everything is behind me next week and I'm moving forward stronger than ever. Right now, I'm just tied with best ever. :)

It was a long, grueling week of self-denial. I'm extremely excited about these results.

Daily calorie totals for the next week will be posted here.